Maybe it's the weather, or the change in seasons coming soon, but I have *no* motivation.
I am taking 3 classes this semester and I literally have no desire to do my homework. They are interesting classes: Comp 1 [easy], Theatre and finally Project Management [love this one]. Maybe it's just the week--it's been a busy week with moving, unpacking, painting....maybe it's the weather...I am not sure. How do I make myself do something. Last night, I worked out at the gym, went home and ate dinner, watched Grey's, took a shower and had myself all set up to sit and read for like an hour before bed. I couldn't do it. I had the text in front of me but just thought, ughhhh....
I mean obviously I know that everyone doesn't LOVE school...but I totally dispise it right now. Last night before bed, my last thought was, I want to drop my classes this semester. Then I told myself, just sleep it off...just sleep it off...you'll be fine the morning. Well, funny thing is, this morning, that's the FIRST thing I thought of. I thought about if I just dropped these dumb classes then I could just take it easy til the fall and not have to worry about anything. Well, obviously, I need these classes to graduate and get my degree. I need my degree to get somewhere in life. I just don't wanna. I don't wanna do it.
I need motivation. I need *something*. I need something to keep me going, and right now, I don't feel like I have anything.
I am one who always rushes into things and has no patience. I want instant gratification. all the time. If I say to myself, I want to drop my classes, for example, I want to do it ASAP. I don't want to wait around. Well, I am going to wait around on it. I am going to force myself to finish what needs to be done this weekend...I have to finish a paper/start a new one...do a discussion online..start working on my project for project management...laundry...go to Gustavus to see Ella's play...
OK I'm going to get a campfire mocha....
-lmz
1 comment:
campfire mocha=YUM.
and i am so not in the school mode anymore! it's like my classes are fairly easy but my mind isn't in it, thus i'm making things way way harder for me! it is horrible! i have spring fever so badly! wouldn't it be great if we could just have degrees and not do all that class stuff? oh well. we'll be glad we stuck with it. plus, hopefully the economy and such will be better in a few years, and we'll have a good education and we'll get better jobs. or, atleast i hope so!
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