Nevermind I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me, I beg. I remember you said, sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind I'll find someone like you.

If only you would stay gone, maybe I could move on.

Sweet like a kiss sharp like a razor blade

I find you when I' m close to the bottom

You can't appreciate the time it takes

To kick a love I always knew was kind of wrong

And as I'm putting out the flame

Somebody brings up your name

Baby baby baby bring me down

I want to be right where you are

Baby baby baby bring me down

You can look me in the eye and break my heart

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lessons learned

Life is a one big learning experience.

Personally, I make mistakes, I get back up, and remember not to make them again. I've learned a lot in my almost 24 years here. Recently, I've had some huge lessons slap me in the face.

First of all, I will not compromise myself, ever again. I compromised my lifestyle, my wants, my desires, to move in with my then best friend. I got rid of my cats. I changed my lifestyle and I regret it. I regret every single second that I have lived with her. I won't compromise myself again. Not for a friend, not for a relationship.

Second, I will never, ever, do something that legally ties me to someone else. I.e. cosign a loan, sign a lease. Both of which have come back to bite me in the ass. Hard. I'm suffering the reprecussions of both of the things, and to say it upsetting is an understatement.

The good news is that I will soon be on my way back to my own apartment, with my beloved cats. I am very much looking forward to this. And this is good. :)

this song.

so go on baby

make your little getaway

my pride will keep me company

and you just gave yours all away

I hate you.

Harsh words, I know.

I hate you. I do. It's almost like 10 things I hate about you. And I could list the things I hate about you. But mostly I hate the disconnect of your words. Is that a phrase? It is now. Last week, we were talking about spending a weekend together, and now I haven't heard from you? I know you've been out of town for work M - F, but you were home over the weekend. And you can't make time to spend 30 minutes with me? And then songs come on my iPod that you downloaded, and I have to skip them. Obviously I skip them. I can't listen to them. Because I miss you. I want to see you. I want to kiss your face and laugh with you. But if you won't make time to see me, I won't make time to like you. The opposite of liking you is hating you. So, I hate you.