It just hit me last night that I am single again... That Nick dumped ME. It's been a while since I've been the dumpee rather than the dumper. It hurts. I remember why I put up walls after David and why I didn't want to get into a relationship. Because I hate the feeling of walking around somewhere and thinking of that other person. I am ready to be single; I need to be single. But, I also need to not pretend it doesn't hurt and that I am not sad. Because I am. And it does hurt. And I am sad. I'm sad because I'll miss Nick. He was quirky and cute and funny. I'll miss having someone to spend time with. I will miss him. But... I just need to give it time and it will all be okay.
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
keith urban.tonight i wanna cry.