Let's take a break...

Let's take a break from dating, and overanalyzing my life and it's every. single. detail. to relish in some things...

It's Fall in the Twin Cities. My favorite time of the year. Soon the leaves will change; Summit Avenue will be lined with huge trees, the leaves turning yellow, orange and brown; they'll fall the ground and I will go out of my way to step on the extra crunchy looking one.

I love crunchy leaves!

Twin Cities Marathon is coming up. It's a few blocks (two to be exact) away from my apartment. I love the TC Marathon, I love watching and cheering everyone on. I always become inspired to become a runner after. So maybe this will be my extra boost... :)

With the Fall arriving, it's time for the apple orchard. Oh my gosh! I am so excited.

Ella & I made a road trip down to Mankato over the weekend. We actually had a blast together, as we always do. We have friends that are still down there for school at MNSU. We're going again on October 9th for the 2010 Homecoming Football game!

My classes have started. I actually have my first session of math {insert vomit here} tonight... I'll be OK though, I know I will!

Don't let me go.

Maybe I am just being nostalgic or maybe I'm being emo. It's my birthday tomorrow...to me, a birthday, is a birthday. It's a day. I mean, yeah, I'm another year older, whoop de do. I guess it sort of hit me that I haven't had a boyfriend in a whole year. I've dated, and the most recent of that is obviously as we know, Corey. Corey's birthday was in May. I made him dinner and we went for a walk and watched a movie. To me, his birthday was quite meaningful. Actually, to both of us it was meaningful, and he did express to me. Corey and I are speaking terms, I even hung out with him like 2 weeks ago... and I won't even get an acknowledgement of the fact it's my birthday, and it hurts... is that wrong? [I obviously spoke too soon. a) my birthday isn't until tomorrow and b) as I was composing this I got an email from him....

Hope you're doing well and you're looking forward to your birthday tomorrow.

I am not going to sit and overanalyze it. Yup, I am doing well. Yes, I am looking forward to my birthday. That is all on that subject. ] 

I think what may have gotten me is this: I was at dinner with my cousin & his wife, for her birthday. They're older, in their mid-30's. My aunt asked A what her favorite birthday has been and she shared that since her and T started dating, her birthdays have been better since she's had someone to celebrate with. She also said she wouldn't re-live her 20's for anything {so i've heard from a lot my older friends].

It's my first birthday as a single girl! I can already hear it....

all the single ladies

all the single ladies

put your hands up

...cause if you like it then you shoula put a ring on it

lmz

Resisting Temptation

I decided I'm sick of being fat. {Okay I know I'm not "fat" but I'm just not happy with myself.}

I want to be in better shape.

I want to quit smoking. (haven't had one since Sunday)

I want to run (another) 5k, a half marathon, and maybe someday a whole dang marathon!

I was sick of thinking, making excuses and saying, well starting tomorrow I'll work out, starting tomorrow I'll quit smoking. I wasn't going to blog about it because then if I fail or just don't do it, then I've set myself up for success, only to fail.

let's just say: it's thursday. So far = so good! I've been keeping a daily food log and counting my calorie intake.

[The only 'naughty' thing I did was have a chocolate bar (half of a mini one) the other day. But a girl needs chocolate!]

I went for a nice long roller blade session on Tuesday night. It's been *so* hot out that I can barely muster up the energy to put clothes on and go to work let alone work out, outside nonetheless.

For my birthday: buying a gym membership in the area (options include: Anytime Fitness, YWCA St. Paul, Statera Fitness or LA Fitness) & yoga package at Corepower Yoga.

The purpose of this afternoon's blog is to share that I have resisted tempation in two ways today.

1. Better than sex cake in the cafeteria...

I could devour this in a second. Staring at it makes my mouth water. But not water enough to not eat ANYTHING ELSE the rest of the day. Or week for that matter.

2. $2 ANY SIZE cold drink at Caribou

Got back to my desk after saying "NO" to the cake and had a coupon for any size cooler for $2. We all know I love the 'bou. And I love their coolers.

So here I am. At my desk. Drinking my 1 guilty pleasure (diet coke) and chewing bubblemint gum. Oh I do have to share I had a chocolate chip/cherry muffin for breakfast. With my banana and oatmeal.

*disclaimer, going out of town this weekend to see Mr. Mayer (aka myfuturehusband/dreamboat/ILOVETHISMAN) IN Illinois. I will not be counting for Saturday/Sunday. I think that's OK.

go me :)

lmz

Build me up, buttercup.

Why do you build me up Buttercup, baby

Just to let me down and mess me around

And then worst of all you never call, baby

When you say you will but I love you still

I need you  more than anyone, darlin'

You know that I have from the start

So build me up Buttercup, don't break my heart

Good old CH always playing his mind games... He's emailing me during the day, like normal, surface things then mentions stopping by tonight for a bit after his night class. I said that'd be fine, then 10 mins later says, 'actually tonight's probably not going to work'. I hate how he literally just builds me up, makes me so happy and excited, and then WHAM! he changes it.

Is it me? I am just building up the excitement in my head or is he partially to blame? I mean what are the other options? He doesn't say anything or give me a heads up and just calls or texts after class? I like knowing he's coming and knowing I'll get to see him. 

lmz

Something I can't say to CH in real life so I'll say it here...

[Cause he doesn't read this]

The original image is from http://loveinthedumps.com/0-features/cards/.

From the website, loveinthedumps.com - one my new favorite online blogs about dating, relationships, etc. I just took a new spin to this one.